Usually, I get to Monday and think, “Okay… what am I going to blog about today?”
But this time, I had the entire post written by Saturday.
Which should have made things easier.
Instead, I thought: What if I made a video?
And then: What if that video became part of a series?
And that’s how we’ve ended up on Thursday…
with no blog, no video, and a growing pile of notebooks whispering, “We were your idea, remember?”
This week’s video was supposed to be finished.
It was supposed to be up.
You were supposed to be able to press play by now and watch me reflect, create, and gently chaos my way through six journals.
But here we are. And it’s not done.
And I want to talk about that — not to apologise, but to be transparent. Because the whole point of Ash & Ember Rising is to make space for imperfection. For pacing. For soft starts and late entries and pages that don’t quite turn when you want them to.
What’s Done So Far
I’ve filmed most of the components for the first journaling video:
- The printables are prepped
- The mixed media version is painted and assembled
- The intro is recorded
- The reflections are written
- The structure is solid
…but I ran out of energy before I could film the bullet journal and digital versions. And rather than forcing it out of guilt, I’m giving myself a little room to breathe.
What’s Still Coming
- The bullet journal version is planned and sketched — it’s clean, calm, and almost ready to film.
- The digital journal is designed in portrait format (finally!) and just needs me to hit record.
(Which sounds simple until you’re running on tea and sheer willpower.)
Both pieces will be finished soon. And the full video will follow, gently and honestly.
Why I Paused Instead of Pushed Through
Because I don’t want to create content that’s built on burnout.
I don’t want to talk about intentionality while white-knuckling my way through a deadline.
And most of all — I don’t want to model the kind of perfectionism I’m actively trying to unlearn.
So here’s my reminder to myself (and maybe to you, too):
You don’t have to force it.
The work will wait.
The page will still be there when you’re ready.
🐐 Coming Soon…
The full video.
Six journals.
One small phoenix-powered step at a time.
Until then, thank you for being patient, present, and beautifully unfinished.
Ash & Ember Rising 